Rain

© Karyn Ellis

I’m going to change my name to rain.
Cause I would rather it were pouring.
Than to be stuck like this grey morning
Feelings tossed aside again.

I’m going to step out off the street.
Find me an alcove I can hide in.
Wait out this thunder and this lightening.
Let tears come crashing down again.

I step outside; I press my face into the sky.
It’s falling down on me. Falling down on me.

I’m going to call myself a cab.
I’ll ride out this constant state of hoping.
The shame I feel for being open.
And drive away this feeling bad.

I step outside; I press my face into the sky.
It’s falling down on me. Falling down on me.

Sound of tin, roof pattering. I slip into sleep that’s solid and deep.
I awake to light–so bright that I have no sense of what time it is.

I step outside; I press my face into the sky.
It’s falling down on me. Falling down on me.

I’m going to change my name to rain.
Yes, I would rather it was pouring.
Than getting stuck in this grey morning
Getting tossed aside again.

I’m going to make friends with my shame.
I’ll jump puddles with my sorrow,
And maybe there’ll be sun tomorrow.
I’m going to change my name to rain.

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